Living with a "Condition"

I have been thinking a lot lately about how I feel. If I will always feel this way, forever? And it has got me down. I live in constant pain. Pain in my lower back and pelvic area everyday without relief. It has been almost a year since this pain happened. It was last February when I got back from a vacation with my parents. We went to Florida, and I was pain free.

That was the last time that I didn't have some sort of constant pain. I am non medicated. Other than the everyday dose of ibuprofen that I take. Something that doesn't even seem to touch the pain. Nothing gives me relief. Nothing seems to take this pain away, and I don't want to live this way forever. There has to be something that someone can do. Dr's seem to think that it is not related to my endometriosis. I think that they are full of shit. They don't feel like this, they don't live with my pain. They will never know. Maybe I am just not good at getting my point across, maybe I suck at saying how I feel. But I am ready to take more action, to figure this out. I know that nothing is for sure, nothing will be a quick and easy fix but there has to be a fix? Right?

I am committed to taking action. To speaking out, to figuring this out. But for now, I am back to work for the night. My office and I will be best friends this week, coworkers are abroad for work, and I am holding down the homefront from my little office.

Me and my condition will still be here, but I am looking for a plan. One that only I can be responsible for, because no one knows how I feel except for me.


  1. Have you ever been told about pelvic floor dysfunction? I went to a occupational therapist who actually also had Endometriosis so she wasnt just making stuff up, she told me that lots of people with endo have it. She did some electrode thingy that moved the muscles and it felt JUST like endo pain, really odd! I have been told the same thing by docs and think they just dont want to do the work. I would look into the pelvic floor thing too though.

  2. I feel ya, girl. I don’t want to live this way forever, either. No one should have to feel this pain.

  3. I am sorry you are in so much pain, don't give up, you keep talking to those doctors until you have some answers.