I have been thinking a lot lately about how I feel. If I will always feel this way, forever? And it has got me down. I live in constant pain. Pain in my lower back and pelvic area everyday without relief. It has been almost a year since this pain happened. It was last February when I got back from a vacation with my parents. We went to Florida, and I was pain free.
That was the last time that I didn't have some sort of constant pain. I am non medicated. Other than the everyday dose of ibuprofen that I take. Something that doesn't even seem to touch the pain. Nothing gives me relief. Nothing seems to take this pain away, and I don't want to live this way forever. There has to be something that someone can do. Dr's seem to think that it is not related to my endometriosis. I think that they are full of shit. They don't feel like this, they don't live with my pain. They will never know. Maybe I am just not good at getting my point across, maybe I suck at saying how I feel. But I am ready to take more action, to figure this out. I know that nothing is for sure, nothing will be a quick and easy fix but there has to be a fix? Right?
I am committed to taking action. To speaking out, to figuring this out. But for now, I am back to work for the night. My office and I will be best friends this week, coworkers are abroad for work, and I am holding down the homefront from my little office.
Me and my condition will still be here, but I am looking for a plan. One that only I can be responsible for, because no one knows how I feel except for me.