I’ve been in a funk for the past two weeks and it is driving me insane. While I haven’t completely shared what is happening in our lives on this blog I think that now is the time, because dammit I need to vent.
I’m taking clomid! There I said it. I shouldn’t be ashamed to admit this, but it makes me feel really exposed to be talking about this on the internet. Yes, I’m a “blogger” and usually bloggers don’t have problems sharing. Some would even go to the extreme of over-sharing and committing TMI faux pas on a daily basis. I’m going to try to keep a happy medium when it comes to sharing what is happening without over-sharing.
That brings me back to the funk that I am in. I’ve been an emotional mess for the past 2 weeks. I feel like crap, have zero energy and did I mention that my lips look like Taylor from “Real Housewives”. A side effect that they don’t tell you about is extremely dry chapped lips, or maybe it is just my own personal side effect from hell? I don’t know, but I am going crazy.
So now that you have the digested the fact that I just admitted to taking fertility meds and that we are actively trying to have kids please don’t feel as if I am asking for advice. Because quite frankly your “if you just relax it will happen”, or “everything will work out” or even “God chooses when it is right for you to start a family” will make me want to physically hurt you. While I know that it is all well wishes and happy thoughts and crap, it doesn’t make the situation any better. I have a disease that is making having kids difficult. I didn’t choose to have endometriosis, and I don’t want you to feel sorry for me. What is a fact is that it (endo) makes having kids harder; therefore we have resorted to fertility meds that make me feel all stabby and bitchy.
Aren’t you happy I decided to share ;-)