Yuck!

It has been incredibly warm here in Minnesota the past few days. Yes, "Warm" is a relative term, and it means that it is above freezing.

The snow has started to melt at a fast speed. I am too scared to go down to the basement and check to see if it is leaking into our lower level. I will leave that for Dru's list tomorrow when he has the day off. I am a nice wife like that. And I just don't feel like knowing about or dealing with a mess that large at the moment. I am currently in a lot of pain. Pain that seems to engulf the whole right side of my abdomen. If you are thinking appendix, don't! Remember that was removed in July? When my appendix decided to hate me. It is related to the disease that is probably invading my body as I write this. Endo is a bitch. I am unmedicated in endo related ways, and have been since August. Which means that I am probably just letting this bitch of a disease invade my body. But there is nothing that I can do at this point. I am at a loss. Acupuncture started yesterday and I am hoping that it will provide me with some relief. But tonight I am done. Done and sick and tired of feeling this way.

So I leave you with this. A view of the dirty street outside of my house. Melting snow means dirty snow. Dirt and more dirt along with the cold white stuff that I can't wait to melt fully.

Weird Foods

I know that I have blogged about the weird things that I eat before, but today really has me baffled at my own eating habits.

I started acupuncture yesterday, and my acupuncturist wants me to write down what I eat for 2 week days and one weekend day. Thats all fine and dandy.

Except that I am eating Sauerkraut and turkey sausage for lunch right now....

Valentine's Day at Casa Erin & Dru

Valentine's Day is just another day here at our house. Yes cards were exchanged and my "Jumbo Pencil" sits beside me as I work-as does a heart shaped box of chocolates that we all know who is going to eat them anyways (Dru if you are wondering)....

But it makes me think. Why do people feel the need to go all out to celebrate this day of love? If you love someone shouldn't you show that love each and every day? I think that love should be present no matter what day it is.

But Dru, if you are reading this, the BEST Valentine's Day present you could still get for me is to SHAVE YOUR BEARD because you really do look like Mitchell....And unless you want me to turn into Cameron........

Thanks ABC/Google Images

Thats all. Happy Valentine's Day to each and everyone of you. I will update you on the beard situation as it progresses. But I am not going to hold my breath.

The BEST Winter activity EVER

Never once in my life did I think that I would be driving on a frozen lake to sit in a house with holes drilled in the ice in search of fish....

The road on the lake...It was a warm day and the water puddles had me a little concerned. 

This was my reality yesterday and I had the MOST fun ever. Ice fishing is awesome. We drove out to the lake on one of the most beautiful winter days in Minnesota. I was actually warm in my long undies, jeans, vest and North Face jacket. Too warm almost. The sky was blue and beautiful and our ice house was warm and waiting for us.

Our fish house...#6

The house had 6 holes that were drilled deep into the ice ready for us. Carpet, a heater, benches, lights. Seriously the works. Everything except for a bathroom, which is what the great outdoors are for. Cool fact-when you pee on a frozen lake a hole forms because your pee is warmer than the ice. Good thing the ice was over a foot thick, because I was drinking wine and once the seal was broken, peeing on the frozen lake was a constant action throughout the day/night.

This was my hole. I caught a few fish but if you stare down into the frozen lake for too long you start to go crazy.

Ice fishing is so much fun, but what is fishing without catching fish? So without further anticipation I give you the BEST part of the day.....

If you are brave enough to come visit Dru and I in the wintertime. We just might take you ice fishing :)

If today was your last day?

I am listening to music while cleaning the house and getting ready to go ice fishing....And the Nickelback song came on "If Today Was Your Last Day"...

It made me think. If today really was your last day, what would you do? Would you live your life to the fullest. Would you have lived your life the way that you had wanted to for the past however many years? Would you be satisfied with yesterday and tomorrow?

My answer is no. I am not ready for today to be my last day. I am not done. There are so many things that I want to do and things that are waiting for me. Life is fully unexpected. Life is not a guarantee. Bad things happen to good people, and sometimes today really could be your last day.

I am going to live life to the fullest. I am going to make the best of my memories, but also strive to make new ones with those that I love. Today is not my last day, but I am sure as hell going to start living life like it is.

I am going to kiss my husband even though his beard makes me slightly sick, I am going to ignore the pain that is in my body daily and live like I am a healthy 24 year old, I am going to work hard but play even harder.

So this is my challenge for you. Live today like it might be your last. Remind those who you love that you love them and appreciate them. Hug your friends and family.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrXIQQ8PeRs

Living with a "Condition"

I have been thinking a lot lately about how I feel. If I will always feel this way, forever? And it has got me down. I live in constant pain. Pain in my lower back and pelvic area everyday without relief. It has been almost a year since this pain happened. It was last February when I got back from a vacation with my parents. We went to Florida, and I was pain free.

That was the last time that I didn't have some sort of constant pain. I am non medicated. Other than the everyday dose of ibuprofen that I take. Something that doesn't even seem to touch the pain. Nothing gives me relief. Nothing seems to take this pain away, and I don't want to live this way forever. There has to be something that someone can do. Dr's seem to think that it is not related to my endometriosis. I think that they are full of shit. They don't feel like this, they don't live with my pain. They will never know. Maybe I am just not good at getting my point across, maybe I suck at saying how I feel. But I am ready to take more action, to figure this out. I know that nothing is for sure, nothing will be a quick and easy fix but there has to be a fix? Right?

I am committed to taking action. To speaking out, to figuring this out. But for now, I am back to work for the night. My office and I will be best friends this week, coworkers are abroad for work, and I am holding down the homefront from my little office.

Me and my condition will still be here, but I am looking for a plan. One that only I can be responsible for, because no one knows how I feel except for me.

Does your husband still think you are pretty?

Last night I went to the "wild game" feed here in town to volunteer. This involved passing out appetizers on a plate with a friend. We were in charge of the deviled quail eggs. They were the cutest little eggs, that probably took a lot of time to make. Imagine peeling tiny little eggs, and then cutting them perfectly in half, and scooping out a very small amount of insides to assemble deviled eggs. A lot of work if you ask me! But we were in charge of passing them out. Not too bad, and they were actually really yummy.

But the highlight of the night was when I returned home 5 or so hours later. Dru had went to the dinner to meet and mingle with another husband. He sat and ate and didn't win any of the drawings that he had entered. But I think that he had a good night.

When I returned home, he said one simple thing that made my night. "You were the hottest woman there, by far"....This made me feel good. Made me realize that he still notices me some 10 years later, and is still attracted to me. I still "have it"...

Now if only he would get rid of that creature that he is growing on his face he calls a beard. It is icky if you ask me. Something that I don't even want to get close to. It itches, and it too mountain man for me. I am more of a clean cut type of gal. I like my men groomed, shaved and clean. So honey, if you are listening. You are still sexy as well....once you shave that thing off we can talk about the cute new little panties that I got from VS last week :)